kyshona armstrong

 
 
So I made this promise that I'd write something everyday.  And I'm doing.... alright... with this new pledge.  It's still new.  TODAY, however, I am NOT inspired.  I have not one iota of creative energy to spurt out to the world.  I'm not going to fight this feeling because, of course, the more I fight it the more angry I get, then that leads to me feeling even less creative, which makes me more angry... its  a vicious cycle, indeed.  

So! I have no creative words for myself (or the world), but I DO have some thoughts that I've been pondering about myself.

1.  I am going through this phase of SEVERANCE from all that does not "feel good"  or sit well with me.

2.  After quitting my job I've developed this awesome ease of telling people PRECISELY how I feel.... without being mean or aggressive (I hope) and MAN does it feel good to be honest in the moment.

3.  I am realizing just how precious my time is.  And I'm getting very protective of my time.  Very protective.

It's only 3 things, but MAN are these things changing my LIFE! 



 
 
I’m tired of being deep
Tired of thinking deep
dreaming deep
revolutions and butterflies

Tired of the conspiracies
dark theories
reparations and judging eyes

I’m over being deep

Cause the truth is
I’d rather gaze at art because its pretty... not because of the story it tells
Sit and absorb the colors, the textures, and time that each pieces was dealt

I’d rather not think about big words and rhyming 
it all just gets in the way
I’d rather spit my words out and say what I really want to say

I’d rather eat ice cream and cookies because it makes me feel good
not count calories or eat just broccoli, or drone over how good food is no good

I’m tired of being deep
It drains me
saddens me
weighs heavy on me
Makes me anxious
fidgety
angry

All these things I’m feeling right now!  
So here I am 
Too deep about being fed up with deep
Just call me surface
blasé
bland
out of touch

I sat in deep way too long and saw and thought way too much
Just give me simple
easy
peaches and cream
let me sit on the easy sands before jumping back into the storm


 
 
I started out a shy girl
quiet girl
blind girl
Hiding behind the black and white

I was a strong girl
tough girl
serious girl
Hardening my heart to the mean in the world

I could be the fun girl
happy girl
laughing girl
Heavy with jokes to please all

I am secretly the smart girl
wise girl
opinionated girl
Scared to speak up because I hate a good fight

I want to be the famous girl
talented girl
diva girl
Singing my soul to the world

But the strong girl
The fun girl
The smart girl
Is too shy to be the diva girl when the camera comes out

and he asks, “How are you gonna make it if you hate the flashing lights”

I have the determination of strong WOMEN pumping through my veins.
Wise Women
Funny Women
Stoic Women
Smart Women
Happy Women
Diva Women
Determined Women